June 30, 2012, was my last day at The Star, the newspaper that I've worked for as a journalist for 12 over years. This decision did not come easily as I loved my colleagues and bosses and the work that I do. I was also hugely aware of the privilege I have - that I could work as a journalist at a time when thousands of journalists are losing their jobs left and right in the West.Read More
There are three stages in the "Fusing" stage of faith, said Kathy Escobar in her book, Faith Shifts. The first, Believing, where I accidentally became a Christian by saying a bunch of words, passed by without much fanfare. It was the Learning stage that was the most tumultous for me.
Because I was utterly unprepared to be thrust into a war between culture, family and tradition.
I was 18. I should be thinking about boybands, for heaven's sakes.Read More
It was a pleasant chat until my friend said: "I thought I should let you know that when I google up your website, there's a note on the search that says, "This site may be hacked."
I groaned out loud.
I've been dealing with numerous security issues with my website for years, and lately it has become an almost monthly affair. Early in 2014 or so, my blog was flooded with thousands of comment spam. The iPage support team said they couldn't help me. The only way out of it was to delete the comments manually. I ended up deleting entire posts instead.
My site was also going offline more often. And each time I would panic, get in touch with a support person and wait impatiently for them to solve the problem. It would take hours, even days before my blog was fixed. Once, my blog was down for a week.
But this Google blacklist thing? This takes it to another level.Read More
In her book, Faith Shift, Kathy Escobar said that every believer goes through a stage where they "fuse" with their faith (regardless of the religion). And in this stage of fusing there are three steps, and the first step is "Believing", the point where we come to faith.Read More
Faith Shift was a book I wish I had when I felt as if my faith was crumbling a few years ago. The book is written by Kathy Escobar, a pastor of a special gathering called the "Refuge" that is home to those who are on the fringes of Christianity (or other religions, really). (She has an awesome blog, by the way!)
People on the fringes of Christianity are called many things: The Dones, church refugees, the churchless. However, they all share one thing in common: They need a safe place to wrestle with their tough questions.
IN AND OUT OF FAITH
Unfortunately, the structure of the current church system does not allow that. Faith shifters' questions alarm and upset many. Even close friends and family may not be able to handle it. Many Faith Shifters are viewed as a threat to status quo, or worse, defective and in need of fixing.
Often, many end up leaving the institutional church to preserve their faith ... and sanity.
Starting next Tuesday, I will be starting a blog series, My Shifting Faith, where I talk about how my faith has changed throughout the years. My perspective would be unique as I became a Christian in a multi-cultural Asian society (Malaysia) and I had to grapple not just with faith shifts but cultural clashes.
I hope my story will make Faith Shifters feel less alone, and I hope that this blog will eventually become a safe refuge for them.
I blog about Faith and Wellness the second and fourth Tuesdays of every month. Below is the post schedule for the series:
- Believing: The accidental Christian (Jan 12)
- Learning: The war on culture, family and tradition (Jan 26)
- Doing: Being Miss Good Christian (Feb 9)
- Shifting: Post Traumatic Church Syndrome (Feb 23)
- Unravelling: Journey through the desert (March 8)
- Returning: Holding out for hope (March 22)
- Rebuilding: Resignation, joy, acceptance and sadness (April 5)
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